YES I DESIRE

Yesterday i asked my friend "Hey have you watched "bb ki vines latest episode...?" and he was like "oooh you watch bb ki vines.. I never knew you are that kind of a girl.." I felt like dude what the fuck go get a life man.. Then the other day I visited one of my friend's house and her mother kept staring at me, and then said "beta what kind of clothes are you wearing, i can count your straps from here, it does not leave a good impression.." I was like seriously last time you saw baghi movie you could not resist yourself from appreciating Shradha's attire and now if you get to see it live, you have turned your views upside down, My friend's family happily accepts her brother's relation with his girlfriend where as they don't want my friend to have any relation with boys...  They say good girls do not wake up at night,
they say good girls do not drink,
they say good girls do not laugh out loud,
they say good girls do not watch adult movies..
they say good girls do not stay out at night...
They judge me with my attire, my eating and drinking habits & for the category of movies i watch.they judge me for my complexion.. thats enough to decide whether a girl is good or bad...Their definition of good is limited to these categories thats the sad part. Today I fight for my desires... desire to look into your eyes and talk freely, desire to look sexy the way i want, desire to instigate my feeling through a movie, i desire to count the stars at night without fear..  I desire to have infinite desires.yes i desire a touch yes i desire an embrace, yes i desire a breath mingled with mine..  i desire to be lost and then to be found by myself. .. I dont want to lose myself in the entanglement of rules, in the convolution of society.. i dont want to be lost in this dirty political mesh of the world..  Yes i desire to be adored,  desire to fall down the cliff and measure the depth of the sea and then fly high with my parachute, sailing above the clouds.. yes i am a girl, yes i have a desire, I am a bird not to caged but let free to fly high, free to hunt my own food and struggle for myself i don't need a male bird for it..i do not deserve this room having a stale filthy smell of biases and prejudices...  yes i desire, desire to be me,myself...