Yes I've changed

Change. It's such a small word when you look at it but it's impact is larger than anything it's letters could ever single handedly express. Humans are made up of layers​ and I'm not talking about the epidermal or any other anatomical layers so before all you biologists out there start listing them please STOP.

I'm talking about the psychological layers. Now I'm no psychological expert but I feel a person is made up of several of these basic three layers: 

Layer 1: This is the layer that the person puts on just to please certain people or annoy other people. This layer may come of as sweet to a set of people or as a heartless bitch to the other. This is the most superficial layer that a person can possess. I'm sure you've heard the phrase "first impressions are the last impressions" well these first impressions are the outcome of the first layer.

Layer 2: This layer is reserved for only a few people. The parents, the close friends, the better half, the boyfriend, the girlfriend. These are the people you can trust so you show your second layer to them. These are the special people in your life. But not that special that you can show them your final layer.

Final layer: This is the rock bed upon which all the other layers are sustained. This is the most personal layer. It is like those embarrassing pictures on Facebook that are under the "only me" tab. No one but only you can see it. Now's not that you don't trust the special people in your life enough to expose them to this layer. The basic reason why this layer is hidden is because 90% of the time we ourselves don't know that this layer exists. It's difficult to differentiate this layer from the other ones. We have turned into such superficial people that we don't know the real us. It is because of this that we ask ourselves from time to time "what am I doing with my life?" "What is it that I really want?" " I don't know who I am anymore"

Well now it's time to stop questioning and take a deeper look within ourselves and find out those answers. It is time to get to know ourselves. "You've changed". If I had a dollar for everytime someone had said these words to me, my bank balance would be much much more than what it is right now. Earlier whenever I heard this I used to justify myself and say that no I'm the same girl you used to know. Nothing has changed. But now I can't help but agree with them. It is only recently that I've realised the fact that I'm getting in touch with my inner rock bed. My final layer. Like most people I didn't even know I had it. I'm learning to love myself a little bit more and loathe myself a lot less. I've become selfish. My love which earlier used to be for other people now belongs to only me. I'm my first priority. So if you think I've changed you're damn right. 

Change doesn't necessarily have to mean a bad thing. Change is what will keep you going on a mundane day so welcome change with open arms. And the next time a person tells you that "you've changed" please hug them and say thank you for noticing. Start spreading love starting with yourself first.