CHAOS

It was so easy to dream of a perfect life

Far from the mayhem of worldly workshop

Everything I imagined was so simple

And yet it had the magical touch to bring a smile on my face

It was like I always knew what I wanted

But never knew how to describe it even to myself.

But looking down the road where I have to walk now

Road, made of expectations and ambitions,

Failures and questions.

Leading towards the unknown

Through the woods,

Made up of shattered glasses and mirrors

In the reflection of which even one’s shadow doubts

Your very existence and purpose.

As I was standing at the crossroad blank

It was now that I realised I had to walk on it barefoot

With both my shoulders to carry the weight to presuppositions

Which with every failure

Just became heavier with guilt.

It all appeared to me shrouded in the mist of fear

The mist engulfing passion

Space of my dreams and imagination were swooped in by

Frustration and stress, stress and stress

And my ears were ringing from the echoes of society

Blabbering about the ideal furnished life

And so every time I wanted to scream

It was just lost in the echoes,

All that came out was the tears making my eyes puffed and cheeks red

Making my brain shut down

So with every step…

Out of total perplexion,

Popped up a question

Everything that I’m doing is it worth it? Or am I worth more?

I didn’t know which path to walk on…..

The inability to see the end

Only paved the way for me where I kept doubting myself and asking my worth

I was now carrying the demon of fear on my back

With the illusions of hopes, I portray in my mind

So, as the custom goes….

Just like the whole world I took a choice

Decision though taken my mind remains unsure

My thoughts, actions and beliefs don’t match

Yet calm to the world, holding on, I keep moving on

Cause, this is my life now- “chaos”…..

BY-AARUSHI VERMA