Invisible

           You were a seat away from where I am now. And I can never forget; I just wanted to be your friend.

      But maybe you'll never understand, that's alright, I wish you happiness and blessing where you are. You still mean so much to me.

      I would admire you from two floors above
me, because at that time, that was the closest I wanted to get. I never thought I could be good enough to be in your circle, I didn't even know if you had one. I was so scared you'd think I was strange and ordinary and insignificant,so I made sure to never get too close to you. Still....I enjoyed watching you as you walked,as if you were clad in royal garments striding with elegance that only I felt honored to behold. And I wished I could have told you,but you didn't know me.

       There was a time I can recall,a time I was watching you, like I always do. You were walking into SDCL, wearing this large,white fur coat. I remember it well because of the way it covered and enveloped you in it's warmth. You also wore the kind of skinny jeans that you like, and.....Doc Martins maybe? I was convinced that only you could pull off such a dazzling look so effortlessly. And I really wished I could have told you,but you didn't know me.

       There was a time when I was at the library working with a friend. I had been watching you for a few weeks now, but you hadn't seen me.

You were wearing black jeans and a knit sweater,I thought that look really suited you.

You were so focused, studious, and engaged in what you were doing. I was rushing past you, because it was time for me to leave, and I really wanted to make it home on time. Just as I was leaving, I caught you in my peripheral vision. I wasn't sure what compelled me right then, but I spoke to you. You were so cordial and friendly and warm,I could've hugged you;only if  you'd let me. That moment meant so much to me, I had tears in my eyes just talking to you. And I really wished I could have told you, but you didn't know me.