Late Night Thoughts

Lying in my bed with full of thoughts.
I turn right, I turn left , still I couldnt sleep.
My eyes are already tired, they wanna bid goodnight
But my mind is still working, thinking a lot of why's.

Why I couldnt be like this, Why I couldnt be like that.
Why is that they are pretty and Im totally not.
Why even if I did my best,  you still have a lot of buts.
Why is it that for you I am not enough.

Many more questions running in my mind.
But Im totally physically tired.
My eyes gave up, and at last fall asleep.
But even in my dreams, I had no escape.

I found myself drowning, and I saw people shouting.
"You're nothing. You're nothing"
Thats what people shouted while laughing
I asked help , yet no one's moving.

I was drowned, and now lifeless
I woke up and realized Im a mess.
Yet no one else gonna fix this
So I need to do this by myself.