Light in the Dark

I was in a very dark place where all I could see was the street lights and two very narrow roads. I knew this was another adventure to survive. I knew something was ready to attack me from behind. My breathing went so heavy in a sense that my heart was about to explode. My hairs were standing up and my sweat were trickling down my face. My hands and legs were so shaky that I felt so weak. 

I thought of running because my instinct said so. But... I just could not lift my body from the juncture where I was standing. I needed to make a choice about which road should I go to. Damn, my mind was throbbing in pain that I could hardly think straight. At that condition, all I could manage was to close my eyes. 

Then... suddenly, I just felt that my body was in a falling movement. As I opened my eyes, I realized I was falling from a very high cliff. 

"AHHHHH!!!!!"  I screamed in fright. I thought I was about to die, but I think something had caught me on the ground and it was a thick pile of nipa leaves that protected me from the sudden impact of my body to the ground. I was safe. 

I stood and cleaned myself up. Then, I explored my eyes to my odd surroundings. It looked like I was in a black forest. Black. Yes, everything was black, even the tress, the rocks. The only thing that was not black was the sky. It was weird and as I stared into the woods, it felt like someone was watching me. Black, piercing, and demonic eyes were ripping my soul. 

Then, again, my heart was pounding, but this time it was faster and more intense. Just like a flash, I ran as fast as I could. I did not know where I should be heading. All I wanted was to escape. Escape from this place that seemed to be trapping me, enclosing me... choking me to death. 

As I was running, I could hear footsteps behind. Damn, someone was chasing me.

Before I knew it, I was panting so badly that it lessened my progress in running. Until, I trampled on some twigs. 

"Ow!" I blurted, out of the pain I felt when the sharp part of the twig hit my feet. It started bleeding and I was in panic. 

I looked closely to the twig that I had stomped on. As I stared closely, there were a lot of earthworms. I gagged and felt goosebumps all over my body. I was about to vomit at that sight when a big and frightening shadow in front of me appeared. I knew then that someone or something was behind me. I resisted the urge to turn around because I might freak out. My feet were stiff and my heartbeat was racing. 

I was about to run, but a voice stopped me...

"Maleah!" I knew that voice. 

I gaped as I saw a face slowly by slowly. It was the face of my future, my future self. It seemed like I was looking at the mirror. This Maleah was different. She's weak and she's sad, depressed and alone. And the worst thing, her eyes were begging for me. I was begging for myself not to surrender. 

"Maleah, wake up! You're dreaming," My mom tapped my shoulder and then, I managed to be awake and be away from that dream.

It was weird, but I now realized it. I'm afraid. I'm afraid to be alone, fighting for everything. I'm afraid that no one would come to rescue me. I am afraid to be a prisoner forever in my past . That's why I realized that what's important is my self. I should never ever lose myself and just trust myself. And that I should never ever let myself lose in any battles and to any darkness. I need to take hold of what's positive because I can only learn to appreciate light in darkness and it's when I can use it as a strength to escape and be free. When I hear myself saying that I should run, I should probably run because no one could ever trust me, but just myself.