Please come back home...

Why did you leave me?

Why did you leave me through my hard and difficult times?  

Why did you hurt me?

I know I had hurt you, but please forgive me because I cannot live without you. I need you in my life. Please do not give up on us because I am not giving up, not even a little bit... because I love you so much. I love you more than my life. And I think that was the biggest mistake that I had done to myself. I gave you my everything.

You promised you won't give up no matter what, but where are you now? Now that I need your presence, you're suddenly gone. You broke your promises. You broke all the sweet words you had said. You blamed me that everything is my fault. I had loved you so much, but maybe I was too possessive of you and maybe, I was too much of you that I had hurt you and I had controlled you without me knowing. 

You broke up with me, but I remembered the day before that you even told me you won't leave and that we can overcome everything when we are together. But how can I fight now when my only strength had left me? You know what I do when I get hurt, but you don't even care! Even saying "how are you?" is very hard for you. 

I gave you my life and you know what I had gone through and how it is hard for me. I expected you to understand me and be patient with me, but you felt tired. I'm sorry if I had done something wrong to you. I'm sorry if I was too much. Please don't leave me. Please fight for me because I had also fought for you back then. Until now, I am still fighting. Please don't let go because I can't breathe. Please don't let go of what we have just because of my mistake. Forgive me. I am paying all my mistakes and sins to you already and I hope you are paying yours, too. Come back to me, baby. I'm waiting, but please don't take too long because it might be too late. When you get back for a very long time, maybe I am already gone... :(