Pain but You

(inhaling deeply)

There you are, at the other end

Walking towards me, for god's sake.

I lower my eyes, fighting the tears,

and pain you evoke at your wake.

You are closer now and I can see

Your beautiful face and your vacant eyes.

I remember how the 'ire of your prolonged hatred

Has been fed with merciless, brutal lies.

I know it's meaningless to look up

For Your Highness, won't grace me with even, a mere glance.

After-all, it was my fault, as you believe.

How about my love for you; a crime for instance....

I still ask myself always, 

Was loving you, my greatest mistake?

But my silly heart refuses to believe and says,

"No, you're wrong, it was a beautiful chance to take."

Who shall I go to?

Who may I tell?

When the thought of your bitter words and ruining your image,

Chain me down in a pained hell.

And you think I am selfish

When you can't see beyond your friends' opinions

While I believe in the pure soul of yours

that resides within your iron-heart's dominions.

You think I am desperate for you.

You hate to see my face in anyway.

But love, its your face that's my elixir,

to make it through each ruthless day.

You think my love is fake, 

a joke presented to everyone's humor.

But do you really care to know the truth?

No, you'ld  rather believe every false rumor.

I know someday, you'll find someone perfect,

Whom you'll love like air, and she shall too.

But I can honestly promise this to you that

No one will ever love you the way I do.

Whether destiny shall bring us together

Or tear us farther apart,

My love will remain unconditional and irrevocable

And will last till Judgement day, in my heart.

As you pass by me now,

I realize I couldn't say it again to you.

Maybe, I'll write someday, while at my deathbed,

that dear, I really LOVE YOU.

And someday, you'll understand

That my heart had beat all along for you.

But you are a free bird, not bound by my expectations,

For I just loved, still love and will always love you...

(exhaling in pain)