Tired

I'm tired.. Tired of everything,

To anyone.

I'm.. I'm tired of being worthless,

Tired of being nonesense,

Tired of acting being someone else even though it's too far from being me.

Tired of 'Always doing my best' but 'My best wasn't good enough.'

Tired of being an option or second choice,

Tired of being insulted,

Being bullied, of Being discriminated..

And ofcourse tired of being compared to the other people.

Tired of hearing so many lies,

Tired of being tired,

Tired of hearing 'Sorry.'

Tired of always saying 'It's Okay.'

Tired of saying 'I love you.'

Tired of saying 'I care.'

Because they're not doing the same way!

Oh?! Wait, i forgot.. I forgot that i'm not a kind of person that can do the puppy eyes then you can forgive in a split of seconds.

I'm not even lovable,

And i'm not like a Gem.. That you will do everything just to protect and scared to break it.

I... I want to end this,

This.. This pain i feel for years.

I... I want to end this,

End this by ending up my own life.

No one cares anyway,

No one loves me..

Me... From being me.

And if i die,

No one will cry,

You can't see anyone who'll cry so loud for me and will call my name and will say 'Please comeback! We need you!'

I'm not worth of their tears,

I'm not worth of anything from them.

I'm worthless.