Too Far to reach

She's standing there, far away from me.

Like us, we're seemed very far from each other, she was too far away to reach.

I want to reach her but I'm scared, I'm afraid that something may change from us..

And if you will ask me if I really love her? I will answer yes.

and why I love her?

I love her because I love her and we don't need reason why we love that person, right? we don't need a reason to love. All we need is to trust one another.

"Bro? What if that someone won't love you back?" My friend ask me and i become silent. "It's okay, if you can't answer right now." He said.

"I.. i will still continue to love her and i will still hope for her to love me back but then if she really can't love me back i will always by her side loving her continously and when time comes and i feel tired of loving her i will stop."

"........i will stop because i don't want her to feel that i'm still hoping, that she's still causing me this kind of pain, that i still... still love her. I don't want her to feel that i don't want her to love someone that i'm being too selfish." I said at him while smiling... a fake smile, i think.

"I don't want you to get hurt bro, you know me. I'm your friend. You know that." He said then i nod.

Then a year past we became classmate to the woman whom i'm inlove with.

We became close,
And closer,
And closest.

Till the day came that i'm ready to confess this feelings i want to say for a very long to her.

"Liam? I want to say something./ Anne i want to say something." We said at the same time.

"Sorry." We both said, again. Then we laugh of what we're doing.

"It's okay, liam. You first, say what you want to say." She said while smiling and her smile make me smile too. This girl, i badly want her and i know she's the one, she's the only one who own my heart.

I smiled.

"Anne.. i really want to say this to you for a very long time." I said then hold her hand.

"......Anne, i love you. I love you since we're freshmen i adore you since the day first time i saw you, but first i thought it was only a crush thingy or puppy love so i don't take it seriously but now it's all clear anne, it's all clear that i really love you. That you're the only one for me, that you're the ony girl i will love-------"

"Stop!!! Stop that crap liam! Tell me you're joking, right? Tell me!" She said while shouting while there is a tears running down to her face.

Why? W--why she's crying? Why she don't want to believe that i love her so bad, this bad?!

"I--i really love you anne, that's the truth." I said.

"No!! You shouldn't! You don't deserve  me, liam. There's so many girls in the whole world, you can find someone who deserve you, that you deserve. Not me, liam. " i--i can't believe this.

"Are you rejecting me? Anne?" I ask her nervously.

"Yes, i am."

It seems that my world suddenly stopped, even the time stopped, my ears seemed to have nothing to hear, as it turned out to be. it seemed as if my breath gradually stopped and my tears flowed slowly and it seems that my knees are getting weaker.

"W--why? P--please tell me why? Anne why?!" I said then cried like theres no one's around me, cry like she's not there.

"This is what i--i'm talking about earlier, liam. I want to tell you something. T--that i--i'm pregnant you'll going to be a ninong and because i-i already have a boyfriend we're together in 8months. And i--i'm just waiting for the right time to tell this to you." She said and i know i should not stress her because she's pregnant but i just can't act as normal that this is wasn't hurt.

"You can leave me now, Ms. Dela Cruz."

"B--but liam."

"Leave!" Then after a while she leave.

I want her to leave cause she's giving me more heart break when my eyes saw her infront of me, crying.. crying because she pity me.

And i don't want that. I don't want her to feel sad, i don't want her to think negative things like this is her fault that she hurt me, i don't want that. I don't.

I don't want to see sadness in her eyes.

All i just want is she will be happy for the rest of her life even though it is not because of me.

I love her but i think i need to get a rest, for now.

I think my heart need a rest, right now.

I need to think first and turn myself away from her.

She's really too far to reach.