What you seek, is seeking You

Date: 12/10/2018, Time: 1:49 AM. Exactly 26 years & 20 days after my birth I found what I have been looking for since I was a young child. It isn't about being a girl that inherently makes us think about life partners, a great Indian wedding and life after marriage but being a mere human being that makes us look for someone we can share a bond with in which we feel taken care of, respected and valued.

It is this innate need to be accepted the way we are that makes us seek, what we call, love.

He is asleep in a different country, on a different bed and I am sitting here gushing over his love for me and how he makes me feel, trying to pen down in words the change he has brought in me and my world. I won't ponder over the negativities of life we both had to deal with before we found each other because now, all I can think of is how amazing life is with him and all the things we will do together as we build our lives with each other.

There are a lot of things we both want to achieve and I have greater passion and confidence about those aims than I have ever had. It isn't his constant support that did the magic but the reason that he doesn't question my intelligence even when I am being just average or completely dismissive about something that is helping me become more hard working and pursue the future which is only bright.

It's his ability to take life and situations that arise, lightly and be able to laugh at them that makes me worry less and achieve more on a day to day basis. The way he says "You are not that person" , " You are better than this" makes me want to be a better person each passing moment. He gives me the reality checks an adult needs while securing the fantasy bubble for the child in me.

My insecurities are critical to him but he throws them out the window. He knows if he can't get me somewhere yet, it is the baggage I carry from my past relationships and experiences that is slowing down the process. He knows that I will get there and all I need is a little patience. He knows I will get where ever he needs me to be and it is this faith I call love.

It isn't the intimacy or the number of things you can do together that makes love. It is this faith and friendship that you share.

I hope, each one of you find what we have and feel what we do. Love. Made up of highs and lows, faith and kindness.

Because after all, what you seek really is seeking you.

Love to the Universe,

A