Why do I still love who hurt me?

Why do I still have feelings for you? Why do still think of you everyday, even if we are broken apart? Why am I reminded of you by almost every single thing?

You have shown that you want to hurt me, that you want to tear me down and burn. You hook me in promising to be respectful and friendly. Only to bare your fangs and bite. You open my wounds again making them fresh again. Then I have to hide away and lick my wounds, as if I am the wolf hunted in the night.

Do you enjoy hurting me? Does it give you joy to see me in pain? Who the hell are you!?

You turn people away from me, making me more isolated from other people. You know everything about me. You know my weaknesses and what I'm afraid of. I let you in because I thought that I could trust you. And yet you exploit them. Causing pain you could never imagine.

Is it revenge? Or is it that you don't want me to move on and you can?

I feel weak...

Tired...

Angry and sad...

Father in Heaven are you up there? Hear your servant's plea...

For I still care for this person who hurts me...